I was at the North and Central Alberta Teachers Convention last week. The first session I went to was... well... let's just say it was and leave it at that. The next session that I went to was much better; I actually took away something that I can apply in the classroom, and in my own life too.
Just before the second session began, I posted a comment on FaceBook about chest pains, or some such, and I was amazed at the speed of the feedback that I received. I even had a phone call from England within minutes of me posting. I am touched and honoured that all those who told me to go to the doctor actually took the time to do so. I know that I have friends and people who care for me and that is wonderful knowledge to have.
Last night, I started to wonder about these 'phantom' pains/spasms/tightnesses/ feelings that I was having in my chest. I started wondering if it was serious, or not, and if so was I ready to leave the world. It was a pretty scary night and I started to think like everyone who thinks the end is near... I started to think about the things I didn't want to leave behind. My family came first in my thoughts, naturally. Then I started to think about the things that I had done wrong, you know... the sins and wrongs committed and left unrepaired and unrepented. Happily, my list is not long, but the fact that I do have a list at all is a sign that there are things that I need to do. I made some decisions, said some prayers, and went to sleep. (For those of you who are interested, I did go to the doctor and I am awaiting the results. I was told to hang tight and wait unless things get worse. If they do, then I am to run to emergency, which I promise I will do.)
I have recommitted to improving my health, attaining and maintaining a healthy weight, and making sure that I don't add to my sin list and try to clear it off. I know that there are priorities in life and that I need to make sure mine are clear and appropriate. I need to make sure that I have fun. I need to make sure that I reconnect with old friends, and make new ones. I need to spend more and better time with my family. I need to appreciate every minute of my life. I don't need to worry about the future, or stress about things... anything. I need to accept that life throws things your way and you either dodge them as best as you can, or catch them and hold on tightly. I need to trust that I will know the difference.
Life is like that... and I wouldn't have it any other way.