Today, at 3:00 pm Ted Morton will be releasing the Torie's budget for 2010. There has been a lot of supposition and discussion about the upcoming budget, especially among teachers. I am sure that there are other areas that will be affected by the new budget, but as I am a teacher, and education and teaching are the waters I swim in, I have a special interest in how the budget will affect me and my fellow swimmers.
It has been somewhat frustrating that many of the people I talk to have already supposed that my job is going to be cut from this school, and even though I have been given assurances that nothing has been decided as far as my future here, the fact is, that almost every day someone commiserates with me and tells me to have hope. I wonder if hope is necessary when there is nothing to worry about. One big issue for me in all of this is that I find it difficult to think positively when very few people allow me the opportunity to move through my day without focusing on negative possibilities.
I love teaching, and I really enjoy teaching at this school, and I am very frustrated at the timing of all of this.
Having said all of this, I am trying very hard to be positive and hopeful about next year. In fact, this may most likely be the one and only time that I post my thoughts and feelings on this particular topic. Being positive and hopeful means not complaing, not worrying, not being afraid, and not being negative. Besides, I don't want to spend the majority of my time suffering and worrying about a decision that hasn't been made yet. Having said that, it is only human nature to do so, and it is also natural for those who are not threatened to try to comfort those who are, whether said comfort is asked for or not.
I have a wonderful family. I love my wife very much and she and my children are the greatest source of joy in my life. I am greatly blessed, and I am glad to be able to recognize this. Life is change, good and bad, and the reality is that no matter how much or how little we like it, the future is not written in stone, and that is something to be extremely happy about, really. We make our own futures in response to the things that happen in our lives. We can choose to make a positive future, or we can choose to make a negative one.
Life is like that... and I for one, would not have it any other way.